i'm a little ashamed for asking...

It really figures, man. About the time Ari comes around on the Ryan issue? Is about the time I'm thinking we're doing our falling apart dance. Which isn't a dance, so much as a total blackout.
I could cry, if I were so inclined. Which I am, but I just don't want to. [/lie] He hasn't replied to the email of DOOM and I'm not really all that interested in calling and not getting ahold of him... or getting ahold of him and having him say it's over or that I'm obviously crazy and that everything is fine. How can it be fine when he won't talk to me? We're not even talking about the traditional overly girlie woe of him not wanting to talk about his feelings. No, fuck that, I would take an email or a quick call to say "hey, I miss you, the strangest thing just happened. An alien spaceship just fell out of the sky."
I figure this is bad news. Normally I'd just guess his internet crashed right after he made his big song and dance about emailing him, only dude? He was online for most of Thursday night. But since that was the night I sent the email of DOOM, I didn't really want to say, "hey, I feel like crap. How about you?"

...I'm a chicken, okay?

I realize I don't exactly paint him in the best light, but it's the whole if you're happy about something, you're not necessarily obsessing over it and picking it apart with glee. And also I got used to no one giving half a damn so... yeah. Complaining is easier or something.

But if it's over, lemme know. If you're just going insane, lemme know that as well. I did the same for him. Granted that wasn't exactly fun but still...

So. Chicken. That's me. But I think chicken little here is going to call and ask him point blank.

Not looking forward to that. Not at all. How long's it been since Diana died? Because that's how long someone's been haunting my head. Funny...

we're only just as happy as everyone else seems to think we are

do you hear, we want the sugar pill

( Mini Madness! )

Anywayyyyyy. One of the Purezza pins is now on my work vest and it keeps snagging my hair. Ugh. The Purezzas come with clear stands and the cosmic duo come with purple stands. Swan came with blue, so I've got two of each now. Yay. It's nifty that they aren't just limiting the stands to twinkle and blue. [/geek]

Remember, when life sucks, find something cute.

And on that note, I'm off. I think the Fridge [yes. Caps.] died again.