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Jan. 25th, 2015 12:04 pmDo you ever get that very blah feeling where you can't think of anything you should be doing or want to be doing and some part of you is like, "Fuck it, go to sleep" but you're not really tired, even if you should be, so instead you do absolutely nothing and feel worse for it?
Because I'm right there right now. I wasn't sure if today was the day I was going to have to clean the carpets but that's been delayed a couple of weeks. (No point in cleaning them only to have the boys muck them up again, y'know?) So when I found out that was a no, I decided to go through the three boxes that have been sitting to my left for forever. I remember Mums went through them at least once but she never circled back to them and I got tired of waiting. It's not like I wasn't plenty patient already, okay?
So. I filed things away, threw out the stuff that definitely didn't need to be kept, and re-packed the books in a smaller box that I then put in the storage shed. The little tables need to be reconfigured but I'm not up to that. I'm a little resentful that I had to unpack the boxes to begin with. I shouldn't have to do all the unpacking that isn't Widget's stuff. But pushing things doesn't seem to work all that well and ... argh, I don't know. It pisses me off that no one else ever steps up when I ask them to. Just like I'm sure it pisses them off when I don't do something. But it's different when they're pissing me off because it's in my head and it's my day off and now I'm all grumpy!
Grr.
Perhaps I should investigate food.
Because I'm right there right now. I wasn't sure if today was the day I was going to have to clean the carpets but that's been delayed a couple of weeks. (No point in cleaning them only to have the boys muck them up again, y'know?) So when I found out that was a no, I decided to go through the three boxes that have been sitting to my left for forever. I remember Mums went through them at least once but she never circled back to them and I got tired of waiting. It's not like I wasn't plenty patient already, okay?
So. I filed things away, threw out the stuff that definitely didn't need to be kept, and re-packed the books in a smaller box that I then put in the storage shed. The little tables need to be reconfigured but I'm not up to that. I'm a little resentful that I had to unpack the boxes to begin with. I shouldn't have to do all the unpacking that isn't Widget's stuff. But pushing things doesn't seem to work all that well and ... argh, I don't know. It pisses me off that no one else ever steps up when I ask them to. Just like I'm sure it pisses them off when I don't do something. But it's different when they're pissing me off because it's in my head and it's my day off and now I'm all grumpy!
Grr.
Perhaps I should investigate food.