Asleep or dead

[impy]

Hmm. Today, somewhere in the world, they're burying my aunt. I'd have liked to be there, only no one asked me. Ah well.

I think everyone should have a day where you wake up, take your meds, cuddle someone who loves you, be given a box of tissues as a present, told to get dressed, and come back downstairs for a surprise that involves silly string. Then to top all that off, you should have candy for breakfast.

[If you're slow, that's what the widge and I did this morning. Or yesterday morning. However you wanna look at it.]

That's the fun of being five. What seems absurd to everyone else who hears the plan? Is totally fine by you, so long as you can wear shorts. Of course we'll have to try it again when he has the strength to hold down the button so the silly string hits something other than his hand or his shoe.


now I know
that I can't make you stay
but where's your heart?
but where's your heart?
but where's your

and I know
there's nothing I can say
to change that part
to change that part
to change

so many bright lights they cast a shadow
but can I speak
well is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
a life that's so demanding
I get so weak
a love that's so demanding
I can't speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
nothing you can say can stop me going home

can you see? my eyes are shining bright
cuz I'm out here on the other side
of a jet black hotel mirror
and I'm so weak
is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
a love that's so demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
nothing you can say can stop me going home
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
nothing you can say can stop me going home


these bright lights have always blinded me
these bright lights have always blinded me
I say

I see you lying next to me
with words I thought I'd never speak
awake and unafraid
asleep or dead
I cannot see
cuz I see you lying next to me
with words I thought I'd never speak
awake and unafraid
asleep or dead

cuz I see you lying next to me
with words I thought I'd never speak
awake and unafraid
asleep or dead

cuz I see you lying next to me
with words I thought I'd never speak
awake and unafraid
asleep or dead

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
nothing you can say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
nothing you can say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
nothing you can say can stop me going home


Naturally I have a headache now. Oi. However, somewhere around here I have a new bottle of Excedrin. Yay me.

Notes to self:
preorder the AFI stuff coming out [nov 7- LE vinyl, dec 12- dvd]

Crap, I forgot the other stuff. Woe.

Heads up. Considering how flaky I am, if you're angling for a holiday gift [pick a holiday, invent one, something] I'd suggest hinting soon. Wishlists, shameless pleading, hopes, dreams, whatever. This doesn't mean you'll get a shiny, but it does greatly improve your odds.

Now I'm off to improve my odds of killing this headache. G'ah!

Oh, and the next time I am so desperate for something to read that I snag a Sisterchicks book from the pile of book offerings, I hope one of you will have the decency to slap me so hard the book returns itself to the library.