flamingnik, I'd leave this as a comment to your post, but I figure other people should know how awesome you are, and
you are. I don't know anyone else who has taken quite so many kicks when they're down and still manage to gather up the strength to get up and try again. The attempts might not always succeed, but the mere fact that you try, that you rally enough to do them is proof of how incredibly strong you are. I know I'm not the only person who thinks this and I'm definitely not the only one who is hoping life stops trying to kick your ass. You, my friend, are amazing and I hope you never let anyone, yourself included, convince you otherwise.