where are you, holiday spirit?

[impy]

  I'm attempting to find my holiday spirit. I'm not sure why I'm not more in the mood. Maybe it'll come about more naturally when I really get to decorate? The decorations are mostly in the attic and I have to wait for someone else to get them, but I do have a few out.

Normally I get a little thrill when I start hearing Christmas music, even if it's just November 1st on the radio station that goes all Christmas, all the time. Nada, really. :( I had a small zing when making Widget's advent calendar and yesterday when I was wrapping up the first part of Mumsy's, as well as when I ordered the presents I've already bought... and an extra zing for the delivery confirmations/shipping notices... and I realize this all sounds swell and like my spirit is clearly in working order but it's not. Normally I kick into the holiday spirit and burn pretty hot for at least two weeks before retail crushes my soul.

I think it crushed my soul already. Still, I'm not ready to give up. I've fired up one of the Pandora stations I loved last year and I've done a little decorating. I just think this year is going to require a little extra oomph to get me revved up.


On the plus side, the house is a lot cleaner than it was which is making me happier.

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[irishgypsie.livejournal.com]

I feel ya. I'm kind of battling the same thing. I think for me it's partly because we can't afford to buy any presents this year so I don't have the shopping and planning to look forward to, nor do I get to feel that wonderful "aha!" moment when I find the PERFECT gift for someone. I won't have a bunch of things to wrap up and put under the tree this year.

All of that is taking a marked toll on my Christmas cheer, so I'm trying to compensate by doing the 25 days of Christmas meme on my journal and wearing something Christmas-y every day (today it's dangly Santa hat and boot earrings). I've got Christmas music playing in my car.

But, yeah, it still just feels kind of weird this year.