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[impy]

I had to break the news to three people about Megan's death and it went about as well as one could hope. I believe I got one broken heart, one "wait, what happened?", and one "well shit." The news confirmed that the accident was hers but her sister had confirmed her death hours prior. Still, I was hoping for it to either be a mix-up or for her death to have not been that particular accident for a whole slew of reasons, not the least of which is that what little you could see of her car in one of the various videos/pictures was just... Jesus.

Not looking forward to work tomorrow. I can't even imagine what work was like today, honestly. Or last night, though I'd imagine not very busy considering the main road was closed for most of the shift.

It's strange the things that keep playing over and over in your head. Like the fact that she pretty obviously had just gotten off work early or that because some asshole decided to run, she died when a cop went flying down the freakin' road. Or there's the stupid thought that Megan always did love a man in uniform and I can't/won't say that aloud, but it's also a thought that she wouldn't think twice about saying if it applied to someone else. And I can perfectly picture the look on her face after it fell out of her mouth and the way she'd actually clap a hand over her mouth a second too late to stop it.

It's going to be weird as hell going in and not hearing her shriek, "Right?!" to all kinds of things or hear her laugh at just about everything. Or walking into the tail end of a very weird conversation she'd be having with someone else and the sheer joy on her face when she'd see the look of confusion and wtf on my face. She might have been a less than stellar coworker if you had to work after her (and to be fair, she was pretty shit at the actual work-work part of the job) but she was definitely one of the most fun and definitely the craziest. The year or so she worked overnight will probably be forever burned into my brain for a zillion reasons. Her absolute fear of snakes that Diamond exploited at every turn (and me having to scoop up the "so lifelike!" snakes when I found them before Megan had a heart attack), the way she and I would both respond to pages because all we'd hear was the M and the N and not have any idea which one of us was actually needed.

And then I think about how her group of four that was insanely close for awhile is now down to just two and if it hurts to realize that as an outsider, is it worse for the other two? Or had they just grown apart enough for it to hurt but not be as painful? Not that it matters, but apparently my brain has decided to clear out everything and just focus very intensely on things. Like how mad and sad I am that she didn't get a chance to pull things around and kick her demons in the ass, or find someone to spend either forever or a good, long stretch of time with.

On the flip side, I'm not sure I've ever seen so many people post about a non-celebrity death before. And we're not just talking about short "RIP" messages either. We're talking actual content and pictures and friends just expressing their grief. I hope that at some point that comforts her family because that's a lot of love there.

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[venivididolli]

Interrupting with OT news, but have you read Paperback Crush yet? I just got it in the mail and I'm pretty excited, although Sleepover Friends only got 2 paragraphs, so I'm not sure how thorough it is. It feels more like they mention a lot briefly instead of delving into the details. Like I skimmed the paragraphs on Girl Talk and they left out the most interesting thing about the series: that one of the mains is Native American, which is pretty much unheard of in these series.

[impy]

I have not! I'd almost forgotten about it, actually. I only ever seem to remember it's a thing these days when I'm in Target or Walmart and I don't know why. Alas, the library doesn't have it in the system, but I'll have to remember to keep checking that or Amazon. Torn on whether I'd rather have a shallow overview of everything or a deep dive on less. I want a deep dive on everything but I know that's not an option.

[venivididolli]

I'm not quite halfway through, but I'm enjoying it. It's fun for what it is, but also frustrating because it could have been so much more. Like in the sports section, she gives a single paragraph to the Bad News Ballet series, one of my big favorites after Sleepover Friends. A single paragraph. In the sports section. Which discusses how these girl sports books were all gymnastics, ballet and cheerleading. And completely ignores that one of the leads in Bad News Ballet is AN ICE HOCKEY PLAYER. ON A BOYS TEAM. I thought my biggest gripe would be that it's not long enough, but it's actually that it doesn't give these series justice for the things that made them cool. And how do you do a sports section and not mention the Krushers once?!!!

[impy]

I did not suffer through a zillion and a half Krushers C plots and A plots for them to be ignored when discussing sports in these kinds of books!

And...that does seem like a weird thing to ignore when discussing things. Like if there's an ice hockey player, particularly on a boy's team, right there... you mention it. o_O

[venivididolli]

I have a feeling she did not read all the books. Like what she wrote about BNB was really basic and could be (mis)interpreted from the covers. She says it's "slobs vs snobs," which is sort of true, but then describes the group of mains to include "a nerd, a fish out of water and a vaguely butch tomboy." Now who's the nerd? Gwen because of her glasses? Or maybe she did get it right and made it Zan, who clutches a book on the first cover? And then there's the vaguely butch tomboy. Is that McGee or Rocky? And every single one of them is a fish out of water!