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Oh yeah, these things happened.
Apr. 24th, 2014 12:04 pmThings I forgot to mention sucking last week:
1) I used to kill time by watching Golden Girls on YouTube. Apparently Disney decided I needed no joy in my life and wiped them clean off. Dammit, Disney, this is why we aren't better friends!
2) The customer I have a tiny, itty bitty, teensy weensy little crush on (sort of? Is it a crush if you have absolutely no desire to pursue anything, even if they just one day announced they were interested? I'm unsure.) appeared. Normally this is cause for celebration! Only he brought his new girlfriend! And unlike the last year or three when I was pretty sure he was married or otherwise taken, this time she was introduced as the girlfriend. Which is odd, as I've never really been introduced, at work, to a customer's SO before. Not counting the really, really drunk people who get super duper friendly and appear with a parade of people and start gushing about how cheap the cigarettes are or something, like I have a hand in the pricing. I have gotten a few of those.
So that was... a thing. I don't do crushes often for this very reason because they almost never end well, y'know? Also, my self esteem is pretty low (which is hilarious because I'm awesome but I'm fully aware that only about three people know this and one of those people doesn't actually remember 95% of our friendship so...) so 15 year old me gets behind the wheel and says things like, "Ugh. They would never like you anyway and if they knew YOU liked THEM, they'd be offended and grossed out and no. We're not doing this. No." It'd be an even younger version of me, but 15 really sucked in a lot of ways and I was pretty friendless at that point so 15 year old me was pretty damn unhappy.
This isn't normally an issue because I don't interact with a lot of people and the ones I do are at work and um, most of those people are really, really drunk or high. Or insane in non-fun ways.
So I'll get the occasional crush and then it'll go away but this one has lingered for awhile, probably because I thought he was married and thus was "safe" and the lady I thought was his wife was pretty nice and it wasn't ever going to be anything more than me enjoying chatting with him for the one night a week he'd show up. It wasn't flirting or that flirty not-flirting that gets done.
The fact that I managed to get him to chat at all when he'd been pretty quiet towards everyone else was just a bonus. (I also took great delight in finally wearing down the USA Today delivery guy by saying hello/good morning every friggin' day for years and then he started saying hello and then being kinda friendly. And then he quit. But still. I count it as a victory.) One I wasn't fully aware of until someone else mentioned it, actually.
Soooooo... it's not like it actually changes things, but it kinda does in some way. And it kinda sucked, though I am happy for him because she seems nice and didn't ask him, "Dude, why are you introducing me to the cashier?" although I'm pretty sure that ran through her mind for a second. :P
Ah well. I've still got the overly chatty thieving prostitute (no, really.) and the drunken Camel rep who gives me a hug each time she sees me.
My cup runneth over.
I also cannot stop coughing. Stupid cold, stop lingering and just be gone!
1) I used to kill time by watching Golden Girls on YouTube. Apparently Disney decided I needed no joy in my life and wiped them clean off. Dammit, Disney, this is why we aren't better friends!
2) The customer I have a tiny, itty bitty, teensy weensy little crush on (sort of? Is it a crush if you have absolutely no desire to pursue anything, even if they just one day announced they were interested? I'm unsure.) appeared. Normally this is cause for celebration! Only he brought his new girlfriend! And unlike the last year or three when I was pretty sure he was married or otherwise taken, this time she was introduced as the girlfriend. Which is odd, as I've never really been introduced, at work, to a customer's SO before. Not counting the really, really drunk people who get super duper friendly and appear with a parade of people and start gushing about how cheap the cigarettes are or something, like I have a hand in the pricing. I have gotten a few of those.
So that was... a thing. I don't do crushes often for this very reason because they almost never end well, y'know? Also, my self esteem is pretty low (which is hilarious because I'm awesome but I'm fully aware that only about three people know this and one of those people doesn't actually remember 95% of our friendship so...) so 15 year old me gets behind the wheel and says things like, "Ugh. They would never like you anyway and if they knew YOU liked THEM, they'd be offended and grossed out and no. We're not doing this. No." It'd be an even younger version of me, but 15 really sucked in a lot of ways and I was pretty friendless at that point so 15 year old me was pretty damn unhappy.
This isn't normally an issue because I don't interact with a lot of people and the ones I do are at work and um, most of those people are really, really drunk or high. Or insane in non-fun ways.
So I'll get the occasional crush and then it'll go away but this one has lingered for awhile, probably because I thought he was married and thus was "safe" and the lady I thought was his wife was pretty nice and it wasn't ever going to be anything more than me enjoying chatting with him for the one night a week he'd show up. It wasn't flirting or that flirty not-flirting that gets done.
The fact that I managed to get him to chat at all when he'd been pretty quiet towards everyone else was just a bonus. (I also took great delight in finally wearing down the USA Today delivery guy by saying hello/good morning every friggin' day for years and then he started saying hello and then being kinda friendly. And then he quit. But still. I count it as a victory.) One I wasn't fully aware of until someone else mentioned it, actually.
Soooooo... it's not like it actually changes things, but it kinda does in some way. And it kinda sucked, though I am happy for him because she seems nice and didn't ask him, "Dude, why are you introducing me to the cashier?" although I'm pretty sure that ran through her mind for a second. :P
Ah well. I've still got the overly chatty thieving prostitute (no, really.) and the drunken Camel rep who gives me a hug each time she sees me.
My cup runneth over.
I also cannot stop coughing. Stupid cold, stop lingering and just be gone!
